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Life doesn't always turn out the way you want it to

So I’m sitting here directly in front of the fan. It’s gotten cooler since the sun set. I would rather be in front of the Airconditioner, but since PHCN (our electricity company in Nigeria) has refused to grace us with their presence, and our generator can only power our fans, I’m working with what I’ve got…

The generators behind me are deafening. and I’m not sure if our generator is competing with the neighbor’s generator to see who can be louder… all I can say is that both of them are winning… I wonder what made me leave the land of milk and honey… the good ole U.S. of A, and whether I will ever get over missing the life I used to live…

To my immediate left, my best friend is typing away on his laptop. He has a project he needs to finish tonight, so I’m doing my best not to disturb him. I take quick glances at him, so he doesn’t notice and start asking me “what’s up?” in that way that means “I know you’re up to something, don’t make me have to squeeze it out of you.” I have to take quick glances, because I can’t believe how lucky I am…

yeah… Five years ago if you told me this is where I would be, I would tell you “heck no!” Five years ago, I was going to be the biggest baddest lawyer you ever met. Five years ago if you told me that cleaning up the house would be one of my most favorite things to do I would have rebuked you… but yet here I am doing all these things, becoming this person, and you know what I realized…I’m really and truly happy.

So yeah life doesn’t always turn out the way you want it to… but I’m glad it turns out just right.

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It will always be alright

I used to spend so much time wondering if I would be alright…

I remember when I broke up with my ex… I was so nervous… I really liked him, but I had begun to realize that it wasn’t going to work out. I wondered if I would ever like someone else like him again… I wondered if I would ever connect with someone like him again… it was scary…

And then we broke up.

When I got engaged I was nervous, I thought about how being a wife was such a responsibility. How I would be responsible for this man’s well being for the rest of our lives together. How I would need to be an exemplary mother to our children… and the kinds of expectations people (specifically my husband-to-be) have for married women…

And then we got married.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about all the things I worry about, and how things always end up… Things are usually not as bad as I think they will be, or as fantastic as I think they will be. There are good times, and there are bad times, but in the end it always works out alright…

I love being married to my husband… and I can’t imagine life without him… so every time I look at him I’m reminded that many of the things I feared didn’t happen and will never happen… so when I start to worry about the new responsibilities… I remind myself…

“It will always be alright!”

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Life is not fair

I get angry sometimes, and all I just want to scream is “It’s not fair.”

But life is not fair…

The other day, I saw a child about 3 years old, helping his mother carrying the kind of load that I wouldn’t even carry myself. I was furious at the mother, but then I thought, I wonder what other options she had… I wonder why she chose to have her child help her with that load… it didn’t seem fair that a 3-year old child would be made to do the kind of work that even adults run away from… but life is not fair…

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The other day, I was driving past a bus stop and two ladies were screaming at themselves. Apparently one lady hit the other lady, and caused some damage, and the first lady wasn’t willing to take responsibility. The other lady was very angry, and she kept talking about how the lady hurt her…”it’s not fair” she kept repeating, but then again, life is not fair…

Whenever I get upset with my friends of family members I think about how unfair it is for me to be wronged, for me to suffer pain, I don’t really think too much about how unfair it may be for them, or whether they are suffering as well… It’s easy for me to say to others, in their pain, that life is not fair… while I scream for fairness whenever I’m in pain.

So please be patient with yourself. When people do things to wrong you, try to let it go, yeah you may be right, but sometimes, life is not fair. And when you see people suffering, and you wish you could solve their problems, just remember that life is not fair… Do what you can, and leave the rest alone…

Have a restful week!

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Monday Eye Check – Tummy Problems

Happy Monday Everyone!

I know Monday is not very exciting for everyone, and sometimes it’s not exciting for me, but something interesting happened to me yesterday…

Anyone that knows me knows that I’m a teensy weensy bit insecure about my tummy… well, it’s not as flat as those girls in the magazines, so It’s always a fitness goal of mine. In High School I spent many years doing hundreds of crunches every morning and night… with bicycles, and jumping jacks, and push ups, all to no avail… I was a hot mama everywhere else, but my tummy. Paul via Compfight

Whenever I feel like I’m looking healthy, I look down at my tummy, and I say, nah… as long as my tummy is there, I can’t be in tip top shape… but yesterday…

Yesterday while preparing for church I looked at myself in the mirror and I saw how skinny my face was. Maybe it was the hairstyle, or the angle of the mirror (shout out to my boyfriend/husband for holding the mirror for me, even though he was just trying to make sure that we get to church on time… but I digress), or that my eyes were finally opened… but whatever it was, I realized that I’m not as big as my tummy may lead me to believe…

And it made me think about my life and all the times I would judge my outfits, and my attractiveness based on what my tummy looked like, but the whole time I was looking at the wrong thing… it made me think about all the amazing things I may have missed out on because I felt I was ugly, or not good enough or not pretty enough, or not smart enough, or not special enough…

I guess what I’m trying to say is that whatever comes my way this week I want to remember that things are not always as they seem. Whatever it is that comes my way this week, I want to remember that I can do it, I am enough, I just have to decide that I will… So what about you? Isn’t it time you start seeing yourself in the right perspective? You are enough, actually, you’re more than enough! Go get ’em girl! Go get ’em tiger! 🙂

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My Husband is my Boyfriend

I’ve been thinking for a while how to write this first post… and let’s just say I feel like I’ve procrastinated long enough…so I have to just write as it comes out…

Well I got married August 17th, 2013, and I had so much fun! Let me tell you, there were so many things that didn’t go quite as planned, but I decided to ignore it all and just enjoy the wedding… and I’m glad I did.

I have plenty pictures to share… but first I wanted to let you know that I haven’t forgotten about the blog…and that I will be blogging more frequently as soon as we settle down a bit… I will still be blogging about relationships… Mostly about singleness… and a little bit about learning to be a wife…

So today I want to talk about my boyfriend (AKA my husband)… there are a lot of responsibilities that come with being a husband – ranging from killing bugs to carrying ridiculously heavy suitcases for one-night trips… sigh** I digress – but there is something about the kind of man that still remembers that his wife wants to be wooed, and still puts the effort to let her know that she is and will always be the most important person to him… So my encouragement to the men is – when you marry continue being your wife’s boyfriend… and to the ladies – only marry someone who is an awesome boyfriend to you, because if he’s not a good boyfriend now, he won’t be a good boyfriend when you’re married.

And I’m so happy that my husband is my boyfriend.

Have a wonderful weekend 🙂

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He said "I will always love you" as he said goodbye – breakup

There are two types of breakups in this world – The girl’s perception of what happened, and the guy’s perception of what happened.

I don’t believe that there is such a thing as a mutual breakup. Nope someone always gets hurt, and sometimes it’s the one that’s doing the breaking up.

I remember one ex of mine telling me “I will always love you” as he said goodbye and I thought to myself “what exactly does that mean? If you love me, why are you saying goodbye?”

Sometimes that’s the way life works… the people that say they will never leave you end up leaving you. The people that say they will never stop loving you, find out that they love someone else… What do you do? Do you just wallow in depression? How do you find the strength to move on???

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I know that the Lord hath given you the land – fighting fear

Fighting fear: I’ve been thinking a lot lately about God’s promises to us, and how sometimes it’s so hard to believe God when he says he has good things in store for us.

I was reading the Joshua 2 the other day, and it really spoke to me

Joshua 2:9-11

9 And she said unto the men, I know that the Lord hath given you the land, and that your terror is fallen upon us, and that all the inhabitants of the land faint because of you. 10 For we have heard how the Lord dried up the water of the Red sea for you, when ye came out of Egypt; and what ye did unto the two kings of the Amorites, that were on the other side Jordan, Sihon and Og, whom ye utterly destroyed. 11 And as soon as we had heard these things, our hearts did melt, neither did there remain any more courage in any man, because of you: for theLord your God, he is God in heaven above, and in earth beneath.

The Lord had called the children of Israel to greatness. He promised them so many awesome things, but they were so afraid because when they went to the land that God promised them, the people were so big and scary. The children of Israel felt that there was no way they could accomplish what God called them to accomplish, because they were afraid…

But the funny thing is that everyone else knew that the children of Israel were blessed, and everyone else knew that whatever the children of Israel decided to do they would succeed…Everyone else was AFRAID OF the children of Israel, no matter how small they were or how weak they looked… But the Children of Israel saw things differently…

It got me thinking of all the amazing things God has in store for you and for me. We spend so much time focusing on our past mistakes, and on all the things that other people have that we don’t have. When in reality, we are already blessed… and people looking at us can see that God has awesome things in store for us…

So I pray that my eyes will be open, so that I can see myself the way God sees me, and that I will be strong and courageous to do what God calls me to do, and to be where God wants me to be, so that I can accomplish that purpose.

How about you? Are you ready? Are you fighting fear?

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I am a child of God – Prayer & meditation

Meditation: As I talked about in an earlier post, I’ve been working on praying more and spending more time with God. So the first truth I decided to meditate on was “I am a child of God.” It’s such a simple but extremely powerful truth…

I was thinking about my Sister in law and my 4-year old niece, and how she disciplines my niece, but always remembers to smile whenever they are talking. I remember when my niece was having a bad attitude and my sis in law started calling her “sweetie” and the more she called her sweet and angelic names, the more angelic my niece became. I remember that there were times when they would do things together, like baking, and “cooking,” things that my niece absolutely enjoyed doing, which seemed like a hassle to me, but my sis in law also thoroughly enjoyed it – mainly because she was spending time with her daughter…

So when I think about being a child of God, all I can do is smile. How wonderful to be his child. To think that God goes through “inconveniences” just so he can spend time with me… To think that God calls me sweet and angelic names to show me who I am supposed to be… To think that God loves me and wants to provide every need and desire for me… Why would I stress myself out about the other things that are disturbing me? Why would I think that I have to fight my own battles?

After all

I AM A CHILD OF GOD.

And all I can do is smile 🙂

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Is there a man in the house? AKA Bye Bye feminism

Feminism:

Feminism is a collection of movements and ideologies aimed at defining, establishing, and defending equal political, economic, and social rights for women. (Wikipedia)

The other day we were having electrical issues in the middle of the night. The electrician was trying to talk us through what to do on the phone, and at some point he asked me:

“Can you give the phone to a man in the house?”

In that brief moment I thought about how I would have been so offended a few years ago. I would think: What was he trying to say? How dare he suggest that a woman can’t do what a man can do? How dare he insult me to my face?

But it’s been years now since I retired my feminist badge, and decided that equality did not mean sameness. I can carry babies in my womb, a man can’t, and you don’t see men trying to fight for the right to carry babies in their womb. I am a woman, soft, curvy, sensual, and all other beautiful feminine qualities that make women so amazing… so why would I want to be like a man? Why would I be insulted if they want to give a man the more dangerous job or activity…

Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for the opportunity to choose to work where I want, and to live the life I want, but I’m choosing to let my man open the door for me, walk on the side closest to traffic when we take a walk…and of course handle any dangerous electrical things that needed to be done…

“So is there a man there?” The electrician asked again.

“Yes hold on” I said smiling, as I handed the phone to the man in the house.

Thank God I’m a woman 🙂

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Devote yourself to Prayer

Prayer: I’ve been thinking a lot lately about where my life is going, what my purpose is in life, where I want to be 2 years from now, 5 years from now, 10 years from now… and it made me realize that I really need to pray more…

I was listening to a speaker and he talked about how meditation is a form of prayer, and it made me think of what other forms of prayer are there?

1 Timothy 2:1
I exhort therefore, that, first of all, supplications, prayers, intercessions, [and] giving of thanks, be made for all men;

Supplications: Making a request to God. When you pray this kind of prayer, you must believe when you pray that you have received. This should probably take 5% of your prayer time.

Prayers: General prayers, personal conversation with God about your thoughts, your feelings, your concerns. This should probably be another 5% of your time.

Intercession: Praying for others. Whatever your concern for them you pray and give it to God. This should probably be about 5% of your time.

Thanksgiving: Thanking God for everything. For being a good God, for his lovingkindness, for his faithfulness. This should take 85% of your prayer time because it builds up your faith, and it helps us to realize that God can do exceedingly above all that concerns us, but only if we believe and are willing to do whatever he asks us to do to get us there.

I’ve got a new prayer partner and I’m excited!

How about you? how is your prayer life going? Do you have a prayer partner? Where would you like to be 2 years from now? 5 years? 10 years?

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